I am sick of there always being so much DRAMA!! Jeff is always in a fight with someone, and it really gets on my nerves. I love him, but how can someone let themselves get so mean? I just don't understand it. He is so mean to EVERYONE. He treats me very well, but to everyone else he is such an ass. For instance. Today we dropped Sara off at Mountain View, we were there for less than five minutes. In that small amount of time he got into an arguement, and the kid told him to come back when he wasn't with his girlfriend and they would fight. Jeff was so furious. He was like shaking with anger. I never know just how I should act when he gets like this, I don't want to further fuel his rage. I feel that he is being really selfish when he acts this way, especially when he is with me. He KNOWS that I hate it when people are mean to other people. I tell him all the time that it really bothers me that he can be so mean to everyone, but he continuously does nothing to try and change, or even be nice to people when he's with me. I don't want to fight with him over it, but I don't want to just keep quiet. I love him, but I hate that he feels no compassion for others. I want to be with him, but I don't want to be with someone who can hold others in so little regaurd. So many things are saying that I can be with him, but then there are those few that say absolutely not. I don't know what to do, or what to think. I feel so lost. I have to go. XoXo. Bye.
Love always and forever,
Heather