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I feel so awful. I have for like forever, but I just ignore it, hoping that, in time, it will pass. But it doesn't. It sits patiently, in the back of my thoughts and the pit of my stomach, just waiting for everything to be just perfect, so that it can crush me when the time feels right. It's like I know that something awful is going to happen, something that is going to send me and those that I care so deeply for spiraling into a dark obise of sorrow and emptiness. I don't want for this to happen, and I don't know what to do to make this empty feeling leave me. I want to be happy, and I want to stay that way. It is worthless to live if all you do is hurt yourself and those that you care for, and that, in turn, care for you. Those of you that read my journal, you know who you are, and you know that I love you. Just know that no matter what I do, I don't ever mean to hurt you. Please forgive me for the selfishness of my actions. And forgive my thoughtless ways. And listen to me when I tell you that you
are amazing people, and you have done more for me than you could ever know. I could never fully express to you my gratitude. And if you ever need me, for anything, I will be there for you, regaurdless. I love you all, and I'm sorry that I seem so off lately. I'm trying to make it better

however. I will make it better, just give me time. I have to go. XoXo. Bye.
Love always and forever,
Heather