oh man... my big thing... hehe, it's not something that most would expect from me, but here goes. Prepare yourself for shock(atleast I hope you would be shocked). Jeff and I had sex, but I personally don't consider it sex. We made love. That may sound cheesy, but that's honestly how I feel. You know, I always thought I would feel just awful when I lost my virginity, but I don't. It felt so right. I can see myself spending my forever with him. He makes me so happy that I cry. I have never cried because I was so HAPPY to be with someone before.  I love him, I honestly do. More that I could ever express with words. He was a virgin too. He was saving it for the one that he felt he would love forever. So when neither of us could fully express our feelings for each other, we showed each other. It seems so very right. I could never begin to tell you. I just know that he is the one that I am destined to be with. I KNOW it. I have never been so sure of anything in my life. Hehe... when I came home the next day, Sara said I looked different. When I told he what had happened, she was SO happy. She was so proud of herself for noticing. She said that I seemed to glow. Sunday we went to visit one of my old Young Womens leaders and even she said that I glow, and seem happier than she has ever seen me. She says that she can't quite put her finger on it, but there is definately a positive change. Hmmm.... I wouldn't have expected that from my Young Womens leader. But I am happy that there is a noticable positive change. It must be right, or wouldn't it be a negative change? I don't know, but I'm happy. Happier than I have been in a LONG while. I can't ever remember feeling so safe. I love him so much. But I have to go, I have a doctors appointment. XoXo. Bye.
Love always and forever,
Heather